When I wish upon a moon...

Tonight, as i look up in the dark,cold sky, i saw the only thing that warms up the dark skies.. The big moon..

In the face of the moon, i could feel the gleaming warmth.. shining down on the dark area of the globe where Singapore lies.. Lighting up the supposed sleepy state of Singapore..

But I took this time to wish upon this moon.. To let the warmth fill up the cold emptiness in my heart..

My dearest mum and my beloved brother.. I have no idea how you both are putting up over in China.. My heart bled when i heard the news about you both being detained and unable to come back.. Relentless tears rolled down my cheek as i stared at my brother's empty bed. I sincerely hope that you both will reach home safe and sound as soon as possible.. If needed for exchange, i would rather exchange 5 years of my life for the safety of both of you..

Talking about wishes, i think many people would think they knew what kind of wish i would have made at this very moment.. Call it my folly, call me dumb.. Because i didn't wish for her to be with me.. i didn't wish for her to feel the same way as how i feel.. Instead, i wished for her well-being.. She has been coughing and it hurts to see her like this.. Therefore, that's how i used up my wish.. It isn't important that she loves me.. Because now i know, my happiness lies in her happiness.. When she smiles, i smile.. When she cries, i cry.. Tonight, i told the moon how much i feel for her.. That's my last straw to keep my sanity..

No matter how long and how hard the road ahead is, i know i have to walk on.. Even if i have to crawl, the journey must still go on. I will never give up on life because i know how precious it is.. and i know other lives are indeed interlinked with mine. No matter how hard the obstacles are to get through, i will crash through them. My new found fuel in life.. my new perspective in life.. i know my life will finally be perfect.. because once again, love has entered into my life and has made my heart human again..

Now, it's time for me to pass the torch and light up someone's life as well.. My dear... will it be you?

Collective memories...

One of the most painful journeys in life..... going around in circles.. Which only means you keep advancing... but only that you think so.. In the end, you're back at where you started..

One of the most disappointing journeys in life...... Being challenged by a friend who seems to be your friend... but would go all out just to win you..

One of the most frustrating moments in life....... To constantly deny a truth that you want so much to reveal... but yet am at the mercy of time..

One of the most ironic melancholy in life........ Loving someone... Periodically being hurt by someone you love and hurt someone who loves you...

One of the most beautiful things in life....... Missing someone... you never know how important that someone is to you til you miss her for almost an eternity...

One of the most important lesson in life........ Do what you deem is right and just... Execute your plan and never look back, never regret...

Nevertheless...

The course has finally come to an abrupt end..

The laughters will be missed.. the fun will be missed...

Nevertheless, the show must go on. Despite the setbacks, the sweat, the blood, the frustration... we still enjoy the rehearsals.. the company.. the jokes.. the craze...

Though many might claim that nothing much has been learnt from the course.. but i must say that several valuable lessons can be learnt..

I've come to learn that patience go a long way. I've come to realize the importance of responsibility. I've come to enjoy putting in hard work just to be able to see what i reap from what i've sown.

I've come to appreciate every single valuable and variable relationship i have with each and every one of them.. An attachment nonetheless.. Given so little time.. Just a short little 3 months.. and it was more than enough bargained for.. Every experience carved deeply into impression. All but one... has carved an even deeper impression.. And that very one is..................................... woah woah woah... hold on a sec... i ain't gonna expose this... not here..

Happy faces.. All around me... i think ultimately that's the prized possession from this course.. Smile my mates! We started of at a high note.. Now let's show them what we can achieve and let's end this on an even higher note!

As frustrated as frustration can be...

FRUSTRATION sets in amicably.. With all the worries of the play, with all the endless discussion of the script. I mean.. Hey.. we're merely actors... not scriptwriters. Somehow, the course planners didn't realize THEY should be the ones coming up with the script for us to act out..

One disclaimer... In the mentioned story, names are changed to protect the identities...

Let me tell you a story about one...

We all love people with many ideas right? But i'm facing a dilema.. Danny has lots of ideas.. And oh yeah... i mean a hell lotta ideas! Unfortunately, not expressed in the right way because when he expresses it to us, we get real mad... Not that we're bias and all jealous that Danny has a good idea but however Danny expresses it, it never fails to make me and Kered feel like crap asses who worked our ass through the night for no shit reason. I know... i know.... it sounds like i'm rather mad about this.. but seriously.. i'm far too tired to really bother about this. We don't have time for this.. We need to complete the script.. We need to get the props.. We need to rehearse.. We need to act it out next week in front of the teachers.. We DON'T NEED an arguement with Danny.

Terry.. You did me proud today.. Really did quite well indeed! But please keep it up.. Don't give up.. and DON'T FOOL AROUND.. Please... Continue being serious.. It's good for you too.. A compliment or sarcasm? Judge it yourself.. I'm sincere though..

Kered.. I understand how you feel. But we've agreed to spur each other on to bear with it.. Oh ya... why am i hiding for? Bear with it? It's just Danny we have to bear with.. But comrade.. i salute you for your effort.. Really appreciate it.. My hainanese beef noodles nice? hahahhaha...

Yan.. Although you were relatively quiet during our discussions, but you are really putting in effort! Way to go! Definitely an inspiration to others!

Alley.. You've been really supportive all this while and i think we're all really glad with the effort you're putting in.. Keep it up!

EE... You were really quiet as well in usual cases.. but when you act, gosh.. you're a whole different person! And way to go for speaking up today! You have words of wisdom.. don't keep it inside..

Shan.. We missed you today.. Awaiting for your return... Lots to catch up... =)

Endy.. Wow... you impressed me with your acting.. Really immersive acting you've got there.. Although i know it's kind of a depressing thing to have Terry as your husband for the play.. But we've made changes for your benefit... No worries.. Remember.. the pat push that you give him during the play is also for your benefit.. Make full use of it! =)

Lynn.. Your enthusiasm, though seasonal, warms my heart.. For i know this is one of the reasons i work hard for the script.. To be appreciated. Your support is also accepted with glee.. for it is important for sustenance.. A reason to really ponder about?

Nevertheless, we're all in this together.. love it or hate it, it's your own prerogative.. It's your call.. Hate it, and suffer on.. because there's nothing else you can do.. Love it and at least enjoy while it lasts.. I would choose to enjoy it.. Not because i took part in writing the 'LOUSY' script.. But because EVERYONE chipped in their ideas.. So on a last note.. Danny.. Don't say that the script is crap.. Because people who matter to me played a part in it as well..

If black was white and white was black...

I know i don't usually do this... as in i mean both.. 1)update my blog 2)ramble about my daily life events but... Time is closing on.. Approximately a month before the final play kicks off.. It would be great if every single one is making the effort.. unfortunately, some are not and are even disrupting the efficiency! BUT i guess there's nothing to ramble about because i believe everyone has experience that before.. One member of the project group not working it out.. We'd all like to strangle that one person right?

Yes thanks to my sister and her claims about me being emo... It's not that i want to be emo.. but many times, it's rather hard for me to express the way i want to.. So blogs are always a way of thrashing things out right? So there! It has served its purpose! hahahhaha~ Now.. I have a resolution for myself.. TRY NOT TO MAKE THINGS THAT ARE NOT COMPLICATED, COMPLICATED. As if that's not complicating enough.. It's either a "YES" or a "NO"... no "MAYBE"s... I realized my friends are telling me that i no longer give clear-cut answers.. i'm always sitting in the middle of the fence.. (Painful for the arse... up the.... erm... let's just stop here) Yup... So that's my resolution..